i guess i finally understood why some pple like to drink beer even though it is so disgusting and not nice to drink at all..
when u are feeling so sad and depressed..
the bitterness of the beer u can't even feel it..
u just want to gulp the whole thing off..
that's what i'm feeling right now..
but i can't make myself drunk..
need do pbpn..
or i will just finish my white wine today..
oh gosh..
i'm just wondering why just a simple thing will make me so heart pain and hard to breathe..
it always happen after i cried out so badly last time..
a small little bad thing will make me hard to breathe..
oh man..
what's happening to my body?
my parents simply don't understand why i need to study in the living room..
maybe one reason is because i wanted to watch tv..
but it is mainly because..
i can't stop myself from crying when i'm alone..
they won't understand why i will be like that..
and i'm lazy to explain either..
tsk.