JUst One year ago..
time really flies and flies..
It's really a blink that a year had passed this year...
2008 is full of so many bad happenings..
.
all start with my grandma passing away...
Yes..
it was chinese new yr eve and i need wear those weird clothes and walk around and round hearing the priest chanting downstairs-_-
it is my first time one of my closest people left me..
ya ..
to heaven and i can no longer see her again..
i can sense the lost of somebody for the first time..
.
some time in the middle of the year..
i lost another one..
though he is still living great in this world..
i can feel the pain in the heart once more..
and yes..
stronger and much more hurtful than the first time when my grandma died..
perhaps..
i have never ever lost somebody..
everything will stay close to me..
even for my frens..
fren is fren for life..
will not become enemies in any form of way..
that why..
he make me feel very painful..
feel the lost of something once again
esp when he is your loved one..
even somewat closer than grandma.
i'm silly enough to think that my first boyfren will be my future husband..
but i realise..
i'm just too silly to think that way..
i always think that i could change..
change to suit his preferences...
and we will last forever..
sadly this will only happen in fairytale.
it takes two to clap..
and things dun happen forever and ever again..
=(
.
but
and i do appreciate that my parents are still living nice and great now..
that's why i cried when i say my new year greeting to them this yr..
they say i'm insane..
hahaha..
which is really true..
dun wish to lose anyone of them..
dun really like the feeling of losing somebody..
fear of losing..
i'm really scared..
and tears will just flow abit when i think of it..
pray hard that i dun need lose anyone this yr..
everyone will stay close to me...
from my family, fren , even those who is just a stranger..
just stay happy as how u are right now..
safe and happy..
in this 2009...
which will be a happy happy year..
RIGHT?
.
if there is no death and parting in this world, how nice will it be?
.
though i miss those people that i've lost..
i know it's impossible to get them back..
though i wish to
=(
.
.
decide not to have any relationship or anything..
i dun wan get hurt again for dunno wat weird reasons.
i told my dad that i'll marry a robot in future..
hahahah..
he say i'm crazy..
and nag all the way thru the journey -_-
ROBOT is good ok?
at least it will stay by ur side forever =)

AS TIGHT AS THIS ONE!!!
a big tight hug and heal the pain in the heart
cos can squeese the pain out..
hahhahah
I NEED A HUGGIE!!