JUst One year ago..
time really flies and flies..
It's really a blink that a year had passed this year...
2008 is full of so many bad happenings..
.
all start with my grandma passing away...
Yes..
it was chinese new yr eve and i need wear those weird clothes and walk around and round hearing the priest chanting downstairs-_-
it is my first time one of my closest people left me..
ya ..
to heaven and i can no longer see her again..
i can sense the lost of somebody for the first time..
.
some time in the middle of the year..
i lost another one..
though he is still living great in this world..
i can feel the pain in the heart once more..
and yes..
stronger and much more hurtful than the first time when my grandma died..
perhaps..
i have never ever lost somebody..
everything will stay close to me..
even for my frens..
fren is fren for life..
will not become enemies in any form of way..
that why..
he make me feel very painful..
feel the lost of something once again
esp when he is your loved one..
even somewat closer than grandma.
i'm silly enough to think that my first boyfren will be my future husband..
but i realise..
i'm just too silly to think that way..
i always think that i could change..
change to suit his preferences...
and we will last forever..
sadly this will only happen in fairytale.
it takes two to clap..
and things dun happen forever and ever again..
=(
.
but
and i do appreciate that my parents are still living nice and great now..
that's why i cried when i say my new year greeting to them this yr..
they say i'm insane..
hahaha..
which is really true..
dun wish to lose anyone of them..
dun really like the feeling of losing somebody..
fear of losing..
i'm really scared..
and tears will just flow abit when i think of it..
pray hard that i dun need lose anyone this yr..
everyone will stay close to me...
from my family, fren , even those who is just a stranger..
just stay happy as how u are right now..
safe and happy..
in this 2009...
which will be a happy happy year..
RIGHT?
.
if there is no death and parting in this world, how nice will it be?
.
though i miss those people that i've lost..
i know it's impossible to get them back..
though i wish to
=(
.
.
decide not to have any relationship or anything..
i dun wan get hurt again for dunno wat weird reasons.
i told my dad that i'll marry a robot in future..
hahahah..
he say i'm crazy..
and nag all the way thru the journey -_-
ROBOT is good ok?
at least it will stay by ur side forever =)

AS TIGHT AS THIS ONE!!!
a big tight hug and heal the pain in the heart
cos can squeese the pain out..
hahhahah
I NEED A HUGGIE!!

22/1/09[THURS]
Wanna see the inside view(内幕) of how we prepare MJ's bday cake?

THis is the bIG BIG cake i'm refering to..
i should have taken the height of the cake..
it's scary...=_=
and do hope u spot the difference..
the " M"
heee..
it sort of disappear..
and ya.
ask them to help us draw..
hahahaha=)

WHOOOO~~!!
the whole clinque!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEIJUN!!!

SUPER LOVE SHOUTING OUT LOUD IN PLAZA SING
(we should have go to the middle of the shopping complex)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEIJUN!
NI YAO KUAI LE ooooooo

thx mui: for coming over to my hse to help me=)
ur butcher skills is super GOOD!
can change ur job to become a butcher in the market =D
thx jb: for coming over to help me too=D
and going around to buy mj present..
i do noe ur stomach is grumbling while waiting for us..
poor girl..
thx glenna..: hahahaha..for going HIGH with me..
so sad that i can't help u take the no. of your cute guy
but hahaha..
i feel he really suit you and ur family lah..
hahahah..
glenna u rockx lah!
thx caiyu: u hor..
want slam u le lah..
why i can't see u there?
aiyoo.
i really shock tio..
but thank for helping us bring mj around
so that we have enough time to go around =)

THX EVERYBODY!
for making mj's bday..
a special one
(i do hope so..)
=)

24/1/09[SAT]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEIJUN!!!!!

(glenna! i love this photo alot!
hahahaha..
ur camera rockx man )=)

AWWWW...
should be happy that i saw him..
but with a girl?
*faints*
CAIYU!!!!!
like no feel le...

TODAY PBPN TEST I'm GOING TO DIE!!
i forget the ans!
LOL..
next time i shouldn't study at night..
should understand that i'm getting older..
and sleep is impt to improve memory..
haiz...

HEEEE..
pray hard that my cake will suceed.. =)
i spent lots of time planning how to do ok?
i went buy the real cake and try..
look at tons of recipe..
and search around for ingredients...
please please god..
let it be a suceed..
this few days lots of things unsucceed lah..
this one MUST succeed ok?
please please please..
pray hard hard hard hard.....

17/01/2009[SAT]

IT'S WKEND AGAIN!!!
and LEE JB is SUPER nice to travel from hougang to yishun to play basketball with me!!!
I LOVE HER LAH!!!
SHE ROCKS!!!
and...
I'm GOING TO BUY A SUPER COOL BASKETBALL!!!
so that we don't need share basketball..=)
hahaha..
and

LEE JB MY MENTOR!!!
teach me how to slam dunk be cool and SHUAI!!!
so that i can electrocute all the men!!
KILL THEM AND BRING THEM TO HELL! >_< .

We played til 1 plus and bid gdbye.. =(

and my cousin crazy crazy come my hse play and bake -_-
oh gosh!!


eeeeeeeeeeeee....
i got a strange strange strange weird dream =(
i dreamt of him having a new gf 0_0
and doing all the sweet sweet romantic disgusting action with his new gf..
hmm..
his new gf is someone who has SHORT hair o_O?
someone who speaks chinese?
seems like an CHINA woman!!!
LOL!!!!!
and arrgghh..
u should noe wat i will do right?
hahaha..
NOT Slapping of course..
i don't slap pple -_-
ahahaha..
cry lah..!!
crying has become one of my hobbies ok?
hahahaha..
crazy insane..
plus
out of my mind..
hhahahaa



19/01/2009[MONDAY]
I HATE THE BLUE MONDAY!!!
becos there is pbpn tut ( i hate it)
plus waking up at 6am in the morning is torturing!!!
hahahha.,,
but SOMEBODY -SHOULD BE- SUPER HAPPY on MON!!!
cos can see..
AHEM..
ahem ahem..
hahahaha
but hahahah
sadly she went off and he came lah..
and ps..
agitate u again..
he is just 1cm beside me..
hahahahah

13/1/09[TUES]

This is the food i had when i'm sitting alone at somewhere at hougang..
hahaahah...
YUMMY =)






15/01/09[THURS]

why do u pop out of nowhere to say all these things?
and my tears just so crazy shed non-stop for the whole night -_-
i dun noe why..
i dun noe why i will feel this way.
and i dun noe why i will cry..
.
.
but thank anyway..
THANK YOU=)
for concerning me..
but dun worry ok?
i won't die so easily de..
even though mui say she dream of me dying due to overconsumption of alcohol..
hhahaha..
but it's impossible de..
and even if i did,
just visit me with a smile in the funeral..
hahahaha..
** touchwood**
i'm talking crap again..
LOL...
你永远也不会了解这痛是怎样的。。
这可以让我得到解脱，
竟是只是短暂的，我也愿意。。
就算有一天我因为这而死去。。
活的人也不应该觉得难过，
因为我终于得到解脱。。

OH OH OH!!!
i seriously need instill my brain with more positive thoughts !!!!!!!!



Don't write your name on sand, waves will wash it away...
Don't write your name in the sky,wind may blow it away...
Write your name in the hearts of people you come in touch with
and thats where it will stay...



Never explain yourself to anyone,
because the person who likes you doesn't need it and
the person who dislikes you won't believe it..
Anger is a condition in which the tongue works faster than the mind..
You can't change the past but you can ruin the present by worrying over the future..

Time is like a river,
you cannot touch the same water twice,
because the flow that has passed will never pass again..
Enjoy every moment of life.."

i'm sick today =(
Flu came back once again...
arrgggh..
my head do hurts alot and kept sneezing like hell..
do waste alot of tissue paper..
and i do hate to use it..

i do wished that i could somewat cheer u up..
i do feel lost cheering somebody up..
and i always failed it..
=( haiz..

Travelling around 72 do make me think alot..
and sitting in the taxis while i travel home do make me shed some tears out..
i'm not sure why.
but ya..
i think i begin to understand why u can get over it so quickly..
while i will still shed tears for you..
i guess as i walk around hougang area..
i began to start understand why...
and ya..
gdnite then...

saw something so meaningFUL!!
let's share!!!
and spread positive thoughts =D


Heal the past
live the present
AND
dream the future.
Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is a mystery but today is a gift.
That is why it is called the Present


Live Life To The Fullest
Do wat You Can
Do Wat You Want
Cause You Only Live Once..

[so that means i call drink my alcohol =)

12/01/09[MONDAY]
wahahaha..
i'm super suay today ok?

SUAY No. 1

i waited for bus 23 for like 20min?
and i was late lah..
luckily i came in b4 she marked the attendance..
-_-

SUAY NO.2
and whahahah..
say well done to myself..
hahaha..
u nv even complete your asignment.
LOL..
and u even loss that wksht..
well done!!!
luckily ningX2 asked u about it..
or u will just go empty handed-_-
as u have forgotton that there is such a hmwk exist
*faints*

SUAY NO.3

YOUR HANDPHONE IS CONFISCATED!
*faints***
oh man..
why u pick up the call?
LOL..
ur brain is sot lah..
and u picked it up infront of teacher!!!
ur brain is day-dreaming again RIGHT?

haiz..
crazy sia..
and i can feel very stressed in my class!!!
MY CLASS IS SO CLEVER!!
just a whole bunch of harry potter!!
and i'm just the noob one!!
oh man..
JUST GONNA NEED BUCK UP!!!
and dun day dream le!!!
WAKEY WAKEY!!!

and LEOW CHEW LOO love her dear fren lah..
LEE JUE BING!!!
why do u know i will go LVL 8 emo de?
SO CLEVER LAH!!!
ANG FONG MUI!!!
how do u noe the both of us will be there?
AND GLENNA TAN!!!
u are so funny lah!!!
u can make me laugh until i faint!!!

ding was nice
to wait for me at her house for the whole day for me..
and we watched BEDTIME STORIES
it was great and hilarious=)
sorry..
i couldn't gave u any encouragement to cheer u up?
i dunno how to cheer someone up lah..
i sux at it-_-

9/11/09[FRIDAY]
today school was fun =)
going crazy for 云 was somewat insane too..
seeing him round the school when i do look nerd with my specs on was so man lu lah..
i was telling caiyu that i hope i won't see him today..
and out he pop out in Flavours..
he still look so cute as always..
that ignorant look do make me want kill him sometime..
can't he glance at me awhile?
so that i will be happy for the whole day?
gossiping with the girls about him was so funny and high lah..
hahahha..
and we become stalker after he went off-_-
guessing where he will be now..
hahahaha..
caiyu is super nice lah..
she help me think and analyse where he will be and such..
hahahahaha..
this is insane i noe..
but we have nothing better to do..
and being stalker was somewat a happy job for us..=)
poor caiyu..
she have not seen her 风 for quite a long time lah..
and i made a small wish for her..
**she will see wind today***=)
dunno why..
i got strong feeling that he will be in school today..
hahahaha..
and you know wat?
out he pop out in school today!!!
he don't have lesson in school on friday de..
and caiyu saw him!!
FINALLY lah..
aww..
i noe caiyu do miss him alot
*wink*
but i never ever think that he will come out in this manner -_-
that cap look.
OMgoshh.
hahahaha..

===AFTER SCHOOL==

glenna was super super nice =)
we went ice-skating at KALLANG!!!
yeahxxxx!!!
and glenna was super clever lah..
she just need one day which is only less than 2 hr to balance herself without holding to the wall
super clever =)
glenna!!
MUST remember something ok?
" CENTRE OF GRAVITY" * wink!
hahahaha..
and ok..
i only fell down ONCE!!
once only..
but sadly..
i had more blood shed..
LOL-_-
i nv ever fell down and have blood come out de lah..!!
at most plenty of brusies all around..
and lOL
this time blood come out -_-
the old injury + the new injury..
well done!!!
hahahaha..
ur knee going to rot soon!!
hahahaha...
imagine somebody went skating with her shorts, with a sprained ankle and some cut on her knees?
LOL..
that person must be insane right?
and that's me=)
hahahaha..
i dun care de lah..
even though it hurts,
i can still walk and jump around!
so who cares!!
only if one day i'm bed-ridden then say bah =P

==IN THE NIGHT==

AWWWW!!
LEE JUE BING IS SUPER NICE!!
she travelled to yishun lah..
even though is so late le =)
actually we planned to go reservoir de ok?
but sadly..
too late le..
later we get kidnapped by weird human..0_O..
and i got stupid curfew-_-
so ya..
we just settle down at some place near my house only..
hahaha..
we bought lots of FOOD!!!
YIPEE!!
do miss this!!!
last time Jo & me do that!!!
i love it!!
LOVE BUYING ALOT ALOT OF FOOD AT ONE GO!!!
and then settle at one place to eat =D
so ROMANTIC DE OK?
okk..
if is with lee jue bing should be LOmantic..
hahahaha...
and of cos!!!
+ alcohol =D
YEAHX!!
lee jue bing let me to drink leh!!!
HEEEE!!!
love her so much!!!
i miss my alcohol alot lah!!
hahahahaha..

==sorry juebing==..
hahaha..
i cried again..
hahahaha..
i everytime will cry de lah..
can say crying is my hobbies le right?
don't ask me why i cry again..
always is the same person
and i do change alot don't i?
i'm super puzzled i change into wat?
i'm like someone who lost her memory..
who am i last time?
and people do hate me for wat am i now right?
and you know wat i did when i cried?
hahaha

i just gulped the whole red wine off-_-
lOllll..
wahahahaha
and
p.s. juebing..hahahaha..
i tell u i'm sort of abit dizzy after gulping the whole thing off..
i dunno if u realise it or not..
hahahah.
and juebing is super nice to send me off to my doorstep lah..
u are the first one ok?
so gandong!!!
if u are a man, i defintely marry you lah..
u are so nice =D

如果醉能让自己忘记烦恼，能够忘记一切，为何不要？
原来我只是一个外表坚强，内心却很脆弱的人。。
就连我自己也不了解自己，何况是别人?
哭不是解决的方式，但只少能让我把情绪放的开一些。。
云也只是让我麻醉自己的药。。
虽然这个药，却解不开心中那悲伤的一个结，
但至少，能让我忘记。。
能让我暂时忘记。。

maybe seriously i need go see some physcology or somewat..
i can be happy today..
but sad tml
this is so not me..
and I AM NOT LIKE THIS last time..
i'm a happy-go-lucky person last time..
and now i'm a super unlucky person lah..

* faints..

i'll be in dead meat tml
haiz...

oh fairy godmother..
just bring my happy self back..
or just let me join u in heaven.
living here in Earth is suffocating me alot ..

31/12/2008[WEDNESDAY] ~ 1/1/2009[THUrSDAY]



yahhhhhooooo~~~~
i love them lah!
and it was glenna's turn to organise the whole thing!!
they so rox man!!!
and thank goodness my parents finally allow me to stay overnight!!!
YEAHX!!
and glenna's brother is so cute and adorable with his -tinkerwinki-(is it spell like this?)
and it reminds me of my doggy at home =D
p.s. i guess smell the same?
hahahaaha
and..
glenna's family is so like her!
so envy man..
they look so sweet =)
awwww...

2/1/2009[FRIDAY]



hope u like our celebration!!!
AND OUR SURPRISE!!!!!
hahahahha
LOVE YOU MAN!!!!
thanks for everything you did for me for the
past
-few months,-
- weeks,-
- days, -
-hours, -
-minutes, -
-seconds!!!-

LOVE YA BABE!!
and a big kiss and huggie from ME ME ME!!!!!

AND THANK RUFENG for planning with me=)
u are a good actor

AND THANK jeremy for popping in and out

AND A BIG BIG THANK YOU TO AGNES AND MJ!!!
for coming down to yishun to celebrate pui's bday!!
whoo~~!!!
love u two man!!!

AND =BOX=
-LEE JUE BING
-GLENNA TAN
AND
-HO CAIYU!
for not coming down and supporting US!!!!!
hahaaha
人不到，心要到OK？
hahaaha..




~sorrry muimui~..
to make u so angry..
i shouldn't be so sad..
i shouldn't be affected..
i shouldn't feel like crying..
i shouldn't feel like emo-ing..
i shouldn't
i shouldn't
i shouldn't have all these feelings because he is sick
but
i'm worried i guess..
i couldn't even msg him or watever ..
and that's why i feel even sadder.
wild thoughts do run wild.
i thought time will numb everything...but it didn't..
true colors still show out after something happen..
tears will still flow down if i think of it..
maybe avoiding and let time heal is not a good solution..
but wat can i do?
nothing -_-
but ya..
heard from his fren that he is well once more..
and that's great =)
blessed you..

~thx jo and pui..~
i'm wondering why these 2 girls know i'm feeling sad becos of that matter ?
LOL !O_o


3/1/09[SAT}
WOW!!!!!
I guess i found back the love of basketball once once more =)
thanks to LEE JUE BING!!!
teach me how to play ok?
YEAHX!!
AND XIAO SHA GUA!!
NI YAO KUAI LE OK?!!!!
BU YAO XIANG TAI DUO LE LAH!!!!
=)
WU GUI!!!!

5/1/2009[ MON]

LOL..
today i had captain ball's competition!
haiz..
having this competion is worst than having exam..
the feeling is just so scary=(
i do feel silly enough to go join the team..
and i think i make the whole team lose lah..
imagine leow chew loo playing sports?
insane ok?
and so out of place..
and reallly sorry guys..
that i didn't do well and help in the team =(..
i do feel i'm clumsy enough..
to fell down..
and worst still..
SPRAIN MY ANKLE and HURT MY KNEESs..
it's crazy ok?
to play until like this..
i can only say i'm too clumsy..
and why do my heart hurts again after running?
it is just like last time running at TKB's hse?
o_O?
maybe i got some weird heart disease after i cried too hard last time?
Hahhaaha
watever lah..
but ahahaha..
rina say i slide from one end to another end?
that's the funny part ok?
i can fly!!!!!!!
LOL..
that's why my knees like that..
but hahahha..
dun care lah..
i'm lazy too to go apply any medicine or go see doc for the sprained ankle.
o_o
time will heal it NATURALLY!!!
hahahaha..

为什么你生病时，我会觉得那么难过？
会想要哭？