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This is a blog of a girl named April.
Born on 28/04/90 See her rants and nag and complain in her blog. If you do not like to hear -ve remarks, there is an X at the top right hand corner, you can click that and exit. she Loves the smell of the lavender she Loves the beauty of a sunflower she Loves the night with a starry sky Dance with ME
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Tuesday, December 30, 2008
WHOOO~~!!! I've think through one night after my frenzzz cheer me up and YA!! THINK POSITIVELY!!! i've been thinking so negatively and getting so emotional lah imagine a crazy stranger named tiong tagged my blog and i can actually feel so sad about it.. . ok.. i admit yesterday alot of stuff did happen.. i tried so hard to cheer up somebody and all i get is u dun understand-_- i do hate the string of words YOU DUN UNDERSTAND.. as it will make me think back my past OH MAN.. and i will get sad.. . plus plus alot of stuff which happen all together. from frens to family to my studies.. which i dun wish to elaborate.. and ya.. all the test results and such.. arrgghh who cares man.. just try harder ok =D . THINK POSITIVELY why let people who dun care about you affect you.. it's insane and not worth it. and so... i'm not going to bother what that tiong or whoever bad going to write on my tagboard. . **ignore those who hurt and love those who truely care** . AND THANKS TO THOSE WHO CHEER ME UP!!!! LOVE U ALL MAN!!! AND THOSE WHO TAG NICE STUFF LOVE YA!! WHOOO~~~ so let's blog some happy stuff=) 22/12/08(MONDAY) Today was a happy day for me!!! or hectic.. hahaha ==In the morning== Project trail out in school ==Afternoon== BAKING TIME FOR MY DEAR PALS!!! i do LOVE to bake =) and i've hired one helper--> CHEE PUIYE!!! SHE IS SUCH A GOOD HELPER ( so good until i fired her! hahahaha) u wan noe why? later i show u wat she did hahahaha  THis is our dear cookies babbies waiting to go into the oven ! =) look so cute isn't it? hahaha.. but sadly P.S. mui it is PREMIX again ya ya ya.. just add water.. hahahha  CASUALITIES is still found of cos.. it's so hard to bake a full body gingerbread man (mine is not gingerbread man.. so let's call it wholemeal man) -cos make up of wholemeal premix..- wahahaha either the hand drop off? or the leg drop off? or the head drop off.. so i'm seriously going insane when it happen we eat the crumbs and pple eat the full body.. hahahaha  AND FINALLY!!some survived from the oven!!! and to human's mouth hahahaha  hahahaha puipui BURNT gingerbread man!! but it's still so adorable =) isn't it? hahahaha the BLACK MAN!!! then we packed the nice ones up and... OFF WE GO TO TKB's HSE!! yeahx nice BBQING WITH MY PALS and i love TKB's son i love running around with him it brings back memories but.. it will just make me dizzy.. and heart pain i'm getting OLD.. ahahha our class people is so cute lah they are playing ANGEL AND MORTAL game so fun lah!! thanks tothe organiser NANXIN AND RAIRAI u girls must have put in alot of hard work sending the e-mail one by one! THANKS!!! =) being my mortal is very xin fu de ok? cos i gave him a lolipop with wings. i made it myself=) and one bear chocolate =) plus this....  the 3 presents all attached with a sweet sweet letter ok? isn't him xin fu? hope he like it=) and enjoyed his christmas even though is not here with us =) ==IN THE NIGHT== CHALET!!! YAHOO!!! isn't it busy? afternoon i have my gathering with my poly fren and night i've gathering with my sec sch fren hahaha but i enjoyed travelling around.. AND A BIG BIG THANKS TO CHEE PUIYE!!! thanks for accompany me in the STARBUCKX!! i will freak out if i'm alone in the middle of the nite =) CHALET WAS GREAT!! my parents do give me curfew but now they allow me to stay overnight WHOO~! and it rox!!!  MY SEC SCHOOL PAL!!! they stay with me through the night =)  TAN DING LI BEST FREN FROM ALL THESE YEARS!! even though i do nag alot hahaha I DO LOVE HER ACCOMPANION!!  TWO CHIO BUS! that is BOSHENG on the right!
YEAHX!!
POOR SHIRLEY
and this is the game that we played through the night Q-all girls drink the alcohol poor allen and of course.. and i do apologise for that 25/12/08[THURSDAY] IT's CHRISTMAS!!!
her BIRTHDAY CAKE!
MY SLICE OF CAKE!! 26/12/08[FRIDAY] whoo!!!
this is the dinner i had =)
10:19 PM
Monday, December 29, 2008
i really don't undestand anybody right? just feel i'm a perfect failure i have tried so hard to understand pple giving them the best i could and all the answer i get is you don't understand me.. not only a perfect stranger say that.. even my closest family say that wat can i say more to boyfriend or friend? no matter how hard i tried, the results are just so sucky perhaps i'm just not good at expressing myself.. tell me wat to do to understand a human? xx==xx i shall blog wat i did in the holidays when i'm in a happier mode xx==xx . . . . . crying is a way of letting go your emotions.. isn't it? but why do i cry so much? =.=
10:51 PM
Sunday, December 21, 2008
awww.. time pass so fast.. a week of holidays has passed so fast SO FAST!! i dun wan start school!!! WEDNESDAY(17th dec) went out to christmas PARTY!! it was such an early one isn't it? with pui and her church frens.. hahaha  this is the present i exchange and after that i change it with pui again.. LOL that MR. BEAN mug dun seem to suit me.. hahahaha but i enjoyed myself.. hahahaha * that MONKEY man * that make us laugh all the way through our journey there =D THURSDAY(18th DEC) ding came to my hse early to do bday CAKE for a person but ya. he dun seem to appreciate dun noe why lah.. we spend so much time doing it can u imagine us.. doing the dorayaki the ugly and spoilt one is taken away.. and only the best out of the many is taken out to give it to u and ding sacrifice her first time doing cake for u and ya.. all u do is make bad comment ok lah i admit that the cake look awful and look like * SHIT* as what u comment.. but ya.. we do spent alot of time and effort in it.. BUT HOW CAN YOU EVER DUMP IT AT DING VOIDDECK THE NEXT DAY? it do hurts my heart lah.. when we spent so much effort and time and this is how u treat the cake -_- and worst is. NOW YOU DUN WAN BE FREN WITH US.. * faints.. i FEEL SUPER DOTS OK? i dun noe why u like that lah. we treat you as fren and do so much stuff .. And wat u did? DUMP THE CAKE IN VOIDDECK AND DUN WAN BE FREN with us? i feel sad seriously.. but ya.. u chose ur own path. if being fren with us is so difficult.. find a better one bah.. take care and happy birthday.  this is the *shit* bday cake-_- FRIDAY(19th dec) hahahaha went out with pui and her bf *opps.. i do feel i'm abit BRIGHT  this is the photo i seen in the photoshop when pui and her bf is doing some photobook i do love this photo it look so nice=) hahahhaa.. after that we made our way to UDDERS again  uncle make me try "lavender ice-cream" erm.. he haven't finish inventing it.. so should i say MILK + lavender ewwwww.. it do taste and smell so disgusting.. it sort of ruin the beautiful taste of the the lavender ice-cream i had in Hokkaido.. yucks.. after that i escaped from the couple and went to orchard to eat dinner with ding and her poly fren SHERMIN  shermin is a nice fren!DING! TREASURE HER OK? and dun keep saying u dun have fren lah when she is so nice =) SATURDAY!( 20th dec) finally force my cousin to my hse aiyoo.. they so cute de lox want to come my hse but dun dare but luckily in the end they did come and play =)  hahahaha hahahahaha but ewww.. 
12:36 AM
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
hahahaha it have been ages since i last blog.. let's blog again.. though i dun feel like typing anything in this late night. but let me blog things out =) FRIDAY!!! it's friday.... and our last paper!(finally) i have been so stressed and sad all these days no things seem to be able to go into my brain so u should noe how my results wil turn out finally hahhaha nothing seem to be able to concentrate after everything ended.. i can't seem to get back to my ownself being emo and cry when i'm in a quiet environment is so not me.. so i do hate exam not really because of studying part.. but more because it is the only time i need to settle in a quiet environment.. and u noe.. i will anyhow think and tears do flow down just like this.. it's insane i noe.. but it's ok.. i do have alot of tears for me to shed and shed.. =) went out wif my dear pui and mui after exam! i do miss going out wif them hahaha... OFF TO UDDERS we go!!  to eat ice-cream!=) it was yummy yummy!   the mao shan wang ice-cream plus rum & rasin ice-cream!!!(it was like drinking rum lah!) ~miss drinking 40% RUM in malaysia~ yummy!!! . and uncle was nice to listen how lavender ice-cream is like when i describe to him and he is like bringing all the flavours out and asking me which one smell like lavender but all do smell so fake! do hope that he can invent it soon!! so that i can eat! . i do miss the lavender ice-cream that i ate in hokkaido i have been finding it for a long long time in Singapore! . p.s.the lavender ice-cream that we made in koolwerkz do sux lah the taste was so weird so must say NO to flavouring. so FAKE~~!! . and UDDERS use real ingredient to make their ice-cream! that is why so nice =D ~miss Koolwerkz uncle~  and there is a board for their customers to vote on wat they like and u noe.. THEY WILL GO MAKE IT! so cool! SATURDAY! went to school for an idiot talk.. so boring lah hahahaha luckily that JB send me her "chicken eye" leg do hope she can get well soon do look so disgusting! my god i slept the whole day when i reach home.. i was so tired after so many days of sleepless night. and i guess i slept more than 10 hrs? hahaha SUNDAY! went bbQ with my family. it was nice bbqing i love to bbq!!! hahhahaha my brother's fork melt as he bbq it with the marshmarrow..! so dumb to bbq wif fork -_- MELAMINE Please -__- ahhahaha.. there is a WEIRD MAN!! luckily it started in the morning and ended in the night. men are despo shoo shoo if u wan hurt my heart =( i only want men that appreciate my inner self.. i will get old in maybe 40 years time my skin will shag full of wrinkles. so dun go for looks lah beside i dun have =P MONDAY! went back school again!! even though it is holiday so sian!!! but guess wat we do? ICE-CREAM!!! we made ice-cream! yeahx make me remind of koolwerkz uncle and how much joy we spent there.. and our group made PEACH flavour ice-cream it was abit weird lah but everyone still seem to enjoy it alot which was great! and i just knew MR TAN GOT PLAY THE ANGEL AND MORTAL GAME! OMG!! imagine the one being his mortal hahaha that will be so funny ok? but he seem so nice sometimes. chatting wif him seem so nice he can say cold JOKE! brrrr... but he do make pple angry sometimes too haiz 怪pek pek.. which side of him is the real one? i do love the side that he say cold joke.. =) went out with ding to watch NICK AND NORRAH's INFINITE PLAYLIST  
i think she has an very interesting role.. love her more than the main actor and actress the way she dropped her chewing gum into the toilet bowl full of her own vomit and picking it up to eat it again is so EWWWWWW!!!! TUESDAY! WE MADE BREAD TODAY!! oh yeahx it is hand-made bread! I LOVE BAKING!!! and we made bread! oh yeahx i'm like so enjoyed ok? and listening to how mr tan have the BREAD MACHINE is so cool lah i wan it too!
this is the cinamon bread our group made=D  and the small raisin bread that other group made KAWAII!! plus a loaf of bread which i never take pics hahahhaa i wan to be a BAKER!! can i? i love to bake
=)
11:58 PM
Sunday, December 14, 2008
go away if u mean to make me hurt . . shall blog it when i feel better . . insane.
10:37 PM
Saturday, December 06, 2008
seriously looking at the way i am right now.. i do feel that i change alot.. changing alot doesn't mean always in a good way.. sometimes a bad one too.. i mean i'm just hiding myself.. from everything and everything.. . . -i fell in love with alcohol that can make myself forget the pain (Even though i always nag at ding not to last time..) -i went to dye my hair and perm my hair.. which is a NO NO to chewloo last time dying my hair will make my hair spoilt. but ya i still did it.. -wearing contact lens.. i wanted to do it so much.. but ya.. it nv ever given me strength or motivation until.. ya.. -i keep staring at the mirror (i do not care so much about my looks last time.. but ya...feel so zi lian.. and i do think i'm just such an ugly freak. -i always treat my friends with a true heart.. but ya.. lots of things happen which make me lose the faith of it.. i so scared that i may get hurt again .. the feeling just sux.. -i do not love chatting with weird man who add me out of nowhere.. -i do not love man who anyhow say I LOVE YOU.. -i do not love man who flirts so much.. -i do not love man who gave me reply which is so dots. - i do not love myself who is like this now.. i show a smile and acted as if i'm very happy.. but inside me i do hurt so much.. i hate it.. i hate it i hate myself for not be able to lead the life i had last time. i hate myself for not be able to have the life without worries last time.. i 'm just a happy go lucky girl last now.. but now.. what am i? some freak which is trapped somewhere being stuck at the same spot now the feeling just sux seriously.. and stepping into the hole which i know i will fell badly just so stupid.. -i hate people who gossip about me at the back.. i do know who you are.. speaking me behind my back about me and him.. can't you just talk about other thing? it is so not fun.. to hurt people at the back.. and the words just turn a few rounds and go into my ears.. how will you feel if it was you? -i do hate myself.. for stabbing myself hard and hurt myself.. continuing hurting? i do love the old me.. but what's have changed is unchanged already what's hurt cannot be heal
10:07 AM
Friday, December 05, 2008
I DO FEEL SO MUCH LIKE CRYING OUT.. -hell lots out of it.. -but it seems that it can't really come out.. -after i cried so much last time.. -my heart will pain like shit when i feel sad now.. -haiz. -i do feel so sad.. -ya.. i do... human are such a sucker.. why am i born as one of them.. or is it becos somehow.. stupid people do enter my life out of nowhere. break my heart. set me into deep thoughts and leave? crazy.. I'm GOING CRAZY! idiot.
10:48 PM
why men are so weird? u have a girlfriend that love u so much ( after looking at all those post she gave -_-) just because u are bored cos she is not around ( for just like 2 months?) and you went round the merry go round looking for GIRLS.. oh well.. army guys do have a weird thinking.. -maybe u just need some companion and i do feel BAD. so NO NO NO.... ARGGGHHH!!!.. I feeling so F up.. grrrrr... man some sort sux alot.. but watever lah.. i gonna need study.. AND STOP THINKING!!!!! STOP STOP STOP.. save me..! -i'm thinking hell lot about it.. shit.. lots of vulgarities are coming out from my mouth.. arrgghh.. i can't concentrate.=( help me.. i guess i will not have any mood to study.. dun ask me why.. i dun noe where to start either.. why do u enter my life when u don't even belong here. i do treasure every fren .. even if i only noe u for like few days.. and ya... how stupid i am.. to believe in fren.. esp when u are just an idiot.. HOLY SHIT! wa lao a. i finally saw TWB!! but ya... =(
9:47 PM
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