these are the alcohol i've drank!
plus one more..
volka & lemonade!
that's is the nicest!

hahahah
seriously crazy..
i'm drowning myself in sorrow..
and making me able to sleep more peacefully
(i still failed to drown myself -_-)
hahahaha..
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guess wat i did on fri when i just came back from malaysia??
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i went to perm and highlight my hair..
for like $200 plus..
seriously crazy..
and the results?
still the same old hair-_-
insane!
i spent 200 plus to get the same hair back..
very dots..
anyway..
i just feeling sad on fri..
so just go and do something ..
and ya..
i'm insane..

and ya..
this is wat i did for the whole afternoon today
i feel so slacked!
playing webcam wif FL!
she is just so cute
hahahah
and that's my new hair..
(still the same huh?)

stupid lah

>_<
i feel like being a rebel pointing middle finger to everyone..

FUCK!

24/11/08
i'm so sad today..
and i cried alot..
words have been sensitive to me..
my dad keep saying i'm FAT and STUPID -_-
DOTS!!!
but ya!!
i'm going malaysia for like 4 days?
and will be back on THURS!
whooo~
actually i dun feel like going..
cos some of my fren nv go too
and mui not same bus wif me!
=（

21/11/08
what happen this few days really trigger back my memories which i tried to hide or should i say avoid..
i've been avoiding what's happen in the past few months..
ya..
that thing that made me fell into depression state..
ya..
indeed..
i've nv really get over what's happening..
and ya..
i've been hiding myself well and safe..
i thought by laughing my way through school i will forget or should i say avoid me from thinking of it..
but ya..
a small little thing that happen recently really made me think of the past
and ya..
wat jo told me about how he is so sad sometimes
and the feeling of helplessness do made me feel so sad..
i do wish to go forward and ask and console and perhaps cheer him up abit..
but ya..
he won't like it de rite?
hmmm..
wat happen recently really set me into deep thoughts..
and ya..
i cried..
not only yesterday yesterday but also today..
in a stupid TKB lec..
his lec is simply too boring i can say that
it can made me anyhow think until i cannot take it ..
and just walk out of the lec room and let my tears flow down..
i can't really take it seriously..
i have been thinking how bad i was..
being so loud and ya..
maybe so inconsiderate about people's feeling..
feel super bad though..
I never felt so angry for so many years to a fren seriously..
feeling angry is one part of it..
but after deep thinking..
it do makes me think about what kind of friend am i..
am i someone who is so bad?
or someone that people do consider as a fren?
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blah blah blah..
today that stupid ding hor..
she hor...
ruin my SURPRISES again..
she damn toot de lah.
or i also damn toot de..
hahahaha..
i always can't surprise her..
-_-
and that made her happy! -_-
she dun love surprises -_-
LOL.
scorpio are weird pple who like to reveal the secrets..
seriously they can go be detective..
ahahahaha...
bringing back her present is damn toot can?
hahahaha
but do hope she enjoy herself over there =D

sitting alone at the usual place we used to sit at century square food court..
drinking a super bitter black coffee which made my heart beat so fast...
staring at the couple sitting infront of me..
it do make me look abit pathetic..
but ya..
people who go food court all hang up in groups and pairs..
and i am the only one in a lone and occupying 3 tables.
do sound stupid.
do love to eat when u are around me last time..
because that's the only way i can spent more time with you.
hahahaha..
eating is an excuses..
hahaha..
hate to eat now..
as i hate eating alone..
i rather starve myself than to eat alone in food court or canteen.
moreover i can lose weight =D




daddy keep saying i'm FAT lah -_-
mummy have been very angry that i still working =(
she keep scolding me..
and i hate people raising their voice on me..
ya..
i've already been so stressed about everything..
and my dear parents..
can't you give be a better environment somewhere?
-_-

SERIOUSLY AND SERIOUSLY!!!
u just make me SUPER angry now..
ur post is like so watever lah..

u say until i'm like so bad?
and i treated u as fren and don't care wat other pple say to me
don't u ever noe it hurts me so much after i look at ur post?
u make me so angry that i used my hands i hit the wall real hard..
is like i can't shout it out in the middle of the night right?
i cried.
ya..
i always cried after i get so angry..
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how can u say me until like that?
it do hurts alot do u noe that?
i did not do it on purpose seriously
and at that point of time i really forget who that person is..
if u have understand me well enough..
u should noe that i'm a super blur person..
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seriously..
i dun noe why u are like so angry about it?
it is just a guy..
and u can say your fren until like that becos of a man.
*faints.
i'm just upset seriously..
ya..
so wat if i've cry..
it is just nothing..
*faints..

14/11/08

HEEEE!!!
I LOVE FRIDAY!!!
cos 云 will make the 3 of us go crazy.
hahahaha..
and wenhui saw her "THE HUNK"
hahahahaha

10/11/08~12/11/08

I'm so sad this few days..
u NOE WHY?
cos my mummy and daddy went GENTING to have fun
and i'm stuck in Singapore-_-
i feel so lonely..
and ya..
sad=(
i fear they may not reach home safely..

i had to take care my CUTE LITTLE brother (as if)
buy food for him
and make sure he is fine ( he can take care of himself-_-)
but YA!!
they is BACK!!
finally~

13/11/08
I HATE THURSDAY!!!

12/11/08
TODAY IS JOANNE LOH CI EN BIRTHDAY!!!

it's hard getting everyone with different timing to get tgt to celebrate
But oh Yeahx
I DID IT!!!
WHOOOOOO~~~~
(one sad part is ANG FONG MUI nv come to witness this)

this is the bday cake that i spent less than an hour buying it.
Oh gosh..
IMagine me running to the shops infront.
run here and there..
and run back..
wif my high heels
OUch.
my foot hurts ok?
but do wish that she loves the surprise given by US =)
and the present too=)

COOL!

i do wish to say everything out..
my sadness and disappointment..
but ya..
everything still need to wait till tml
gdnite.

A HEART SHAPE CUTLET!!
i cut it ok?

A HEART SHAPE BEE HOON!
look like monster..
waahahahaha

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i feel so loved by my friends =).
though they don't show it..
i noe they do love me
=)

maybe to u i'm just a lousy friend lah..
or maybe to u your other fren seem to be better..
all u noe is to give me weird reply.
one day i will just die of heart attack lah..
why concern u so much..
when u dun even appreciate -_-
*faints

I saw an accident today..

ya..
quite demoralising right?
the man just laid there flat on the ground not moving..
feel sad...
blessed the person..
wishing him to get well soon.
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TP BOOK SHOP is having 30% off storewide..
sound kinda cool rite?
the queue was super duper long
and super stuffy inside..
but i still manage to get something from the sale =)
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went to watch High School Musical wif Mui and caiyu..
hahahaha
poor mui..
the drink leak out..
and it's all spilled into her bag-_-...
and caiyu how's ur first time smuggling food inside?
hahahaha..

awww...
the background for this show is simply super pretty..
and the couple inside are just all so sweet..
i'M SO JEALOUS!!!
i want to have a treehouse that can let me gaze the stars!
and a man that Love me so much..
lOl..
a show is just a show..
how can life be so perfect?
Lol..
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dream shattered.
but i should understand
it should not be one at the first place
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风云
-_^

thursday is just a sad and lonely day for me....
i hate thursday..
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do i really dun understand pple?
why is everybody saying the same word to me?
it's so sad lah...
i'm trying so hard to understand human..
why is human so complicated..
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but come to think of it.
do u understand me either?
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CAIYU!!!
i really love to gossip wif you lah!
hahahahaha..
MR " WIND" finally look at you!
WHOO~~~
mission succeeded!!!
i never ever regret calling your name loud infront of him
wahahahahaha...
so funny

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today i'm happy..=)

HAiz...
i think i'm crazy..
one day i will be happy.
the other day i will be sad..
am i having menopause?
although i'm not so old lah..
but i think i'm having mood swing lah..
stupid.
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i think the person inside this photos will freak out seriously..
but don't you think it look nice?
i'll upload the pics we took at secret recipe next time..
hahahahah..
so funny..
imagine JEAN like that..
and people looking
hahahahah

why chose me in your group when you can just dump me away?
do you ever noe how lonely and lost i could feel?
since u needed me in your group..
why do u rather stick wif other people and leave me alone like an idiot?
i rather go other group..
i'm suffering down there =(

u just gave me one day of PEACE...
and here u go again..
msging and calling me once again.
-_-///
it's kind of idiotic lah..
but i understand lah..
i feel unfair for you..
as i have the same feeling as you maybe..
and may tempt to msg u when u msg me..
but i can't be so bad to give false hope to you..
all i can do is just..
stop having any contact wif you...
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i guess u will understand wat's my intention..
i just hope i won't meet u
in the middle of the road..
and talk about this..
it's kinda ...
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the feeling of wanting your love ones to msg u is just so strong..
and it's even more sad that he/she won't reply..
ya...
i got the experience b4.
so i dun really wish to hurt anyone..
maybe i can try getting wif him.
deceiving myself for him as HIM..
but i think it's so unfair to him..
isn't it?
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