i've been isolating myself this few days..
thinking about some ques ..
hmmm..
why do we live in this world?
for our friends?
even if i die, they still have new ones..
for our parents?
even if i die, they still have my brother..
who is much more cleverer and capable..
so should be ok...
then should be for ourself rite?
what i wanted i already have it all..
i got the feeling of happiness that i can laugh until my cheek hurts...
i got the feeling of love
i got the feeling of losing a friend
i got the feeling of betrayal
i got the feeling of hurt..
i got the feeling of heart pain..
i got the feeling of crying everyday till my eyes almost went blind..
i have experienced everything...
or at least i think..
what i wanted i already achieved..
there's nothing left that i wanted..
so it's really ok if i disappear from this world..
no more regrets.
ya..
i wanted so much to leave this world..
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i've been carrying these thoughts around..
luckily going to koolwerkz make my mind so occupied..
until i don't really think so much over there..
ah gong have been very nice..
talking to him make me understand more about life perhaps..
we heard from the radio that two people commit suicide..
and he just feel they are very silly..
perhaps..
i dun wan pple to talk behind my back when i die or something like that..
i just wan die peacefully..
hmmmm..
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