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that freak This is a blog of a girl named April. Born on 28/04/90 See her rants and nag and complain in her blog. If you do not like to hear -ve remarks, there is an X at the top right hand corner, you can click that and exit. she Loves the smell of the lavender she Loves the beauty of a sunflower she Loves the night with a starry sky Dance with ME mariah carey bye bye mp3 \| lyrics Credits Host: Blogger Software: Adobe Illustrator CS 2, Macromedia Flash Pro 8 Layout © Xav qior	Monday, September 29, 2008 what's the point of living? there 's no point.. i'll gave up one day.. dun miss me either.. it's no point too... 10:25 PM Sunday, September 28, 2008 27/09/08 [SAT] i've been thinking alot today.. ya.. esp b4 working today.. grrrr.. that's why i isolate myself once again.. just msg will do perhaps.. . . . mmmm.. thinking and thinking... grrrrr... sobbing in tears.. grrrr.. i hate myself being like this lah!! i was such a crazy woman last time.. then now i'm sobbing in tears! what the hell am i doing!!! . . . grrr.. went work wif a stupid mind -__-.. sometimes i hate working.. not because of the surrounding and all that. because i need to put on a SMILE even though i'm feeling so down..=( appearing happy and u r not happy. the feeling just so sucky. . . . work at tamp branch today. infront was Yoshinoya shop.. it bring back alot of memories... i was holding my tears so hard so hard .. i so scared that it may flow down and scared pple.. but.. ya. i did hold back... let the air dry it.. and let the eye balls absorb back the tears .. hahaha . . . JB was so sweet so sweet today! she made a card and gave it to me! so ke ai rite? guess wat is it? hahaha.. she came to tamp branch and ate wif me! wif her derrick too of course.. they are so sweet. so sweet 我要羡慕死了啦！！！！ derrick and her is so so so SWEET! envy envy!!! wish them all the best lah! so sweet de couple..=) . . . My dear JB ar.. potato. u r just so sweet.. ur msg really make me want to cry lah.. u so ke ai.. u will be blessed de sha gua. NI HUI XIN FU DE!!!!! . . i almost lost her card lah.. really.. i was so scared.. i search high and low .. but it was all along in the pocket! LAME lah LEOW CHEW LOO!!! scared for nothing! blur queen! . . . working wif that stupid MONKEY (he called himself that ok?) i say " u must be enjoying all the attention when people look at you when u r flipping the tako balls. It must have let u feel that u r a SUPERSTAR that people adore!" but u noe what he say? " i think i look like a MONKEY in the zoo that people come and look at the tricks they do" WALAO aaaaa.. say until u like that. and JB still think he look hamesome lah.. i got high expectation on you b4 i came there to work.. cos i nv see him b4.. but.. ya. i think lookable only... not my type..-_- he is just a super LAME man.. keep mimicking my laughter.. and bluffing me that got CUSTOMER! and laugh at me after i turn over.. walao.. SO CHILDISH!!! and that MANAGER!! stil help him talk! and crap wif him.. i'm gonna faint... he think he is hamesome.. maybe he is .. cos lots of girls seem to love him.. but whatever.. MONKEY dun have the so-called hamesome or not.. -_- .. 28/09/08 [Sun] i went to temple today.. i cried infront of god today.. shhh.. my mum dun even noe that.. i told god to blessed me wif happiness .. and let me xin fu... and let me forget my pain.. . . . i hope it will come true =) i'm like a walking zombie today.. i have no mood to do anything.. 10:32 PM Saturday, September 27, 2008 26/9/08 Made CORN ice-cream today! i bought the corn for 1 for $1.80 it was X isn't it? actually i do not intend to go Koolwerkz today de.. cos i should be out shopping wif my frenz.. but.. due to some problem. i'm still back to koolwerkz.. ahgong was quite shocked that i came there STUPID STUPID STUPID CINDERELLA!! waa.. that stupid maze game really scared my wits out lah.. walao.. u still can laugh until so loud! wait till i trapped u inside the cool room and let u freeze to death.! Grrrrrr.... no knitting today.. and my scarf got one hole -_- BIG one.. 最近还好吗 - S.H.E 你最近還好嗎挑一張耶誕卡寫上滿滿祝福的話地址寫的是心底你能不能收到它天有點冷風有點大城市寧靜而喧嘩這一個冬天我得一個人走回家問自己習慣了嗎沒有你每到夜裏回聲變得好大有沒有什麽好方法讓寂寞更聽話 (S.H.E) 你最近還好嗎 (好嗎) 是不是也在思念裏掙紮你說會記得我還記得嗎你最近還好嗎 (好嗎) 忙碌嗎累嗎心還會痛嗎如果真不得已忘了我快向快樂出發有再多的牽掛都已沒有權利表達 (沒有權利表達) 舊情人給的問候比陌生人還尷尬(都還尷尬) 昨天遠了明天还长回憶模糊但巨大這樣的深夜眼淚要怎樣不流下 (要怎樣不流下) Repeat (S.H.E) 你最近還好嗎 (好嗎) 是不是也在思念裏掙紮你說會記得我還記得嗎 (O你還記得嗎) 你最近還好嗎 (好嗎) 忙碌嗎累嗎心還會痛嗎如果真不得已忘了我快向快樂出發 i shouldn't cry so much.. i shouldn't think so much.. i shouldn't.. u maybe having a fun and happy life over there.. u maybe hugging other girls right now u maybe enjoying ur life now.. i shouldn't just cry out of nowhere.. i shouldn't.. i shouldn't... u only hurt me too much.. that i forget how to live alone.. i always thought that making myself busy is it the best choice? why do i still cry? STUPID WOMAN! i hate myself.. STUPID!!!!! i pleaded god to end my life... i sincerity pleaded.. give it to those that need it more than me.. i dun need it anymore... 1:57 PM Thursday, September 25, 2008 I CUT myself today.. (chop chop chop) it hurt so much... got blood oozing out.. stupid sweet potato.. can't you be abit softer... so that i dun need used so much force ... and so that i dun have a cut? and i just realised.. the antiseptic in the first aid box EXPIRED le.. lucky nv used.. or my hand will be gone now... . MAKE SWEET POTATO ice-cream TODAY! Uncle say it is his dream to make sweet potato ice-cream! i made his dream came true! . i bought $10 plus of vegg today! 1. COrn 2. YAm ( still very unsatisfied wif the yam ice-cream) 3 Sweet potato.. . i made yam ice-cream today again.. this time lesser mix.. but again.. it is still WHITE!!!!!! arrrrgggghhhh!!! NO PURPLE!!! HOW CAN THAT BE!!!! luckily the sweet potato is orange colour! or i'm just going mad! . 灰姑娘！要乖乖洗东西！不然，不给你吃雪糕！~ why do i knock onto all those cabinet.. and u can so easily get to the exit in the dark? even though asking u to turn in circle for 10 rounds! u still can get your way there! Arrrggh the next FEAR FACTOR in the dark COLd room of minus 20 degrees .. I will win lah! why i kept knocking onto the cabinet! pain lah! it's made of metal -_- what have u ever told him? i guess u really told him not to be friend wif me? why did u ever did that? WHY? u have hurt me so much as your fren.. u jus dun noe that.. u think u did it's right.. and perhaps it is ? or ? but i just tell u that.. u have just hurt me more .. even more.. u told him not to be fren wif me. and what u did? even though u noe this was not right.. u still do the same thing don't you.. u should understand me more than anybody else don't you? but why are u like that? saying things this way.. and doing things that way.. seriously.. i do not noe what to do.. i noe u are concern about me.. but u hurt me more than what u think it is.. perhaps u think it is right.. but u nv noe u hurt me alot.. i'm just a toy.. letting people play my way.. sometimes i seriously hate myself.. why is life like that? who is wrong and who's right? WHo? why am i getting all those real answer bit by bit? i rather i dun noe anything right from the start so that i won't think.. why everyime i try to get over abit.. things happen again.. and everything just back to its own state.. can't everyone who has say something regarding to this .. stand in a row.. and just tell me everything? Can? i'm going mad wif the slow torture.. 10:05 PM Wednesday, September 24, 2008 Went to see DOCTOR today.. the doc motion very slow lah.. i waited like 2hr for Him? and the cat eye colour is red today-_- last time was blue de it change colour?? omg.. . i've been dizzy dizzy topsy these few days.. it is just a sudden of dizziness.. then stop but will come again .. just a few sec?LOl. and my chest is still feeling uncomfortable as usual.. -__-.. hope medicine can make me feel better get well soon.. . made YAM ICE-CREAM quite a failure i think.. Uncle put too much ice-cream mix le!! then no colour and had a bland taste!! waaa.. but got the sandy texture =) I'm going to re-do it.. and hope it look something like that! and not white lah! i wan a purple colour!!! YAM=Purple . MAde Oreo ICe-cream too!! human get smarter from their mistake don;t they? lesser mix this time.. i think it taste great? i haven't try it.. but the colour look so nice =D as usual.. th stupid bus journey is so long.. and everytime it just will make me think of stuff.. and really feel like crying.. 好失败。。没有他不会死啦！醒醒！！！！！ just as i was about to shed one drop of tears.. i feel something on my shoulder.. i thought somebody faint lah!! it was a little boy lying on my shoulder.. he has fallen asleep.. just like you.. he made me so .. ya.. feeling is.. unable to describe.. . . . 周杰伦 - 稻香(抢听版) 对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨跌倒了就不敢继续往前走为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落请你打开电视看看多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去我们是不是该知足珍惜一切就算没有拥有 . 还记得你说家是唯一的城堡随着稻香河流继续奔跑微微笑小时候的梦我知道不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑乡间的歌谣永远的依靠回家吧回到最初的美好 . 不要这么容易就想放弃就像我说的追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了为自己的人生鲜艳上色先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色笑一个吧功成名就不是目的让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义童年的纸飞机现在终于飞回我手里 . 所谓的那快乐赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了谁在偷笑呢我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎珍惜一切就算没有拥有还记得你说家是唯一的城堡随着稻香河流继续奔跑微微笑小时候的梦我知道不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑乡间的歌谣永远的依靠回家吧回到最初的美好 . . . how i wish i can be like the song.. 跌倒了要继续往前走.. 可以吗？ 10:15 PM Tuesday, September 23, 2008 YUCKY YUCKY YUCKY !! today i'm so unlucky unlucky =( today we had spaghetti for lunch.. but so unlucky lah =( 1. the pot caught FIRE!! 2.and puipui sauce spilled on my labcoat =( become red =( . 3.and uncle dropped the pot of hot water and spilled on me.. HOT!!! and pain pain =( waaaaaaaaaaaa......... . . . 放不下-龔詩嘉你好嗎你的夜是不是跟我的一樣漫長是不是還把我給你的愛好好戴在手上要堅強我常常對著鏡子裏的人大聲講雖然說孤獨的想一個人好像一種懲罰 MSN上太多的路人甲偶爾你也該上來說說話想著你的溫柔想著你的模樣我放不下都说过了再见我們各自飛翔各自長大抱緊愛會掙扎放開愛會心慌神也很忙到底要實現哪個願望離開你那麼傻可以後侮嗎風很大怕你又穿得太少會讓自己著涼我很棒一個人換了燈泡房間變得很亮每一天發生的事情我都好想要跟你講愛很怪什麼都介意最後又什麼都原諒 Ooh 心裡最深的牽掛越想遺忘越不能忘 . . . 我很傻。。我知道。。不应该想难么多。。不应该因为你又流下眼泪。。 9:53 PM Monday, September 22, 2008 just saw puipui's blog... and there is one song.. which is for me i think.. so kan dong.. really make me want shed my tears.. almost.. . . . Lost -Michael Buble can't believe it's over I watched the whole thing fall And I never saw the right man was on the wall If I don't land Days were slipping past That the good things never last That you were crying . Summer turned to winter And the snow it turned to rain And the rain turned into tears upon your face I hardly recognized the girl you are today And god I hope it's not too late It's not too late . 'Cause you are not alone I'm always there with you And we'll get lost together Till the light comes pouring through 'Cause when you feel like you're done And the darkness has won Babe, you're not lost . When your worlds crashing down And you can't bear to fall I said, babe, you're not lost Life can show no mercy It can tear yo . . . thankx mui, pui and jo.. and of cos ding.. i wish to find back the old HAPPY-GO- LUCKY chewloo she is lost.. she will find her way back.. back to her candy world that can bring people happiness... . ..i cried.. (not because of sadness..but a feeling of love..friendship love perhaps..) 11:08 PM if pain will just goes away.. my chest is just getting more and more uncomfortable.. making me so hard to breathe.. today i woke up wif the ceiling spinning round and round.. maybe the medicine that i took is just making everything go worst.. someone please bring me away from here.. 我只是不小心又掉下了眼泪。。 . . . 退后-周杰伦天空灰的像哭过离开你以后并没有更自由酸酸的空气嗅出我们的距离一幕锥心的结局像呼吸般无法停息抽屉泛黄的日记榨干了回忆那笑容是夏季你我的过去被顺时针的忘记缺氧过后的爱情粗心的眼泪是多余我知道你我都没有错只是忘了怎么退后信誓旦旦给了承诺却被时间扑了空我知道我们都没有错只是放手会比较好过最美的爱情回忆里待续天空灰的像哭过离开你以后并没有更自由酸酸的空气嗅出我们的距离一幕锥心的结局像呼吸般无法停息抽屉泛黄的日记榨干了回忆那笑容是夏季你我的过去被顺时针的忘记缺氧过后的爱情粗心的眼泪是多余我知道你我都没有错只是忘了怎么退后信誓旦旦给了承诺却被时间扑了空我知道我们都没有错只是放手会比较好过最美的爱情回忆里待续 . . . i never ever knew that my banana chocolate flavour & durian ice-cream is LOVE by so many people.. ♥ thanks.. it really touched my heart!! brighten my day abit. hope i can create more and MORE =) 9:40 PM Friday, September 19, 2008 Today i took a leave for my KoOLWerkz.. and went for my jap cca event. WAGASHI DAY!! arrggh.. shouldn't have gone there right? i'm not close to my Juniors lah.. and i just stone there..-_- hai.. and i'm not really sure what to do -_- Ok.. Wagashi day got two food to prepare.. -Abekawa mochi -Dorayaki. this is abekawa mochi i toast this until i burnt my hand=( it is red now and pain lah the soyabean powder/flour & anko paste for taste i drew this.. smile ok? this is how it is like o_O abit gross i now.. but taste not bad i think. DORAYAKI!! doremon favourite =D and my favourite^^ somebody made this meow meow dorayaki.. so cute? or should i say.. cute in a weird way served wif SHIT anko paste =) javier tell me to squeese it into that way-_- it's hard to squeese.. so he say the anko paste got constipation.. what the -_- . . . went to see DOCtor today .. he say i'm weak.. even though i look fat .. but is an empty shell.. that is why i always backache, headache and chest pain.. LOL.. i sound old.. so many ilness.. hahahha.. i dun really care whether i have any illness lah.. want die then die.. doesn't really matters. he say NO: -carrot -eggs -chicken -fruits(only yellow pear and pessimon) -cold drinks REMEMBER REMEMBER!!! saw one MEOW MEOW wif BLUE EYES!!! look scary and her fur is dropping -_- this cat is super creepy lah.. it can cough and sound like human? btw.. do cat cough? hmmm.. started knitting my scarf today.. am i that irritating that my fren and the teacher is so pissed by me?? . EVERYTIME-BRITNEY Notice me, take my hand Why are we strangers when Our love is strong Why carry on without me Everytime I try to fly, I fall Without my wings, I feel so small I guess I need you, baby And everytime I see you in my dreams I see your face, it's haunting me I guess I need you, baby I make believe that you are here It's the only way I see clear What have I done You seem to move on easy And everytime I try to fly, I fall Without my wings, I feel so small I guess I need you, baby And everytime I see you in my dreams I see your face, you're haunting me I guess I need you, baby I may have made it rain Please forgive me My weakness caused you pain and this song's my story At night I pray That soon your face will fade away And everytime I try to fly, I fall Without my wings, I feel so small I guess I need you, baby And everytime I see you in my dreams I see your face, you're haunting me I guess I need you, baby heard this song when i'm kniting.. it's nice.. tears welled up again.. when i'm travelling at 969 passing the park.. sudden feel of the warmth of ur hand of the last time make me cry.. why do i still cry when people ask about u? i should have move on.. it had been such a long time.. i shouldn't think so much and make myself so miserable.. stop crying.. stop crying stop crying. SMILE SMILE SMILE.. can the brain stop thinking? CAN? can dun make me so pathetic? can help me find back my smile? . . . why is life like this? god gives us obstacles in our life for us to grow.. i think they will give u back solutions for us to go on right? . . we come to this world wif nothing.. we will leave this world wif nothing too.. so .. don't be GREEDY 11:37 PM Thursday, September 18, 2008 i love the smell of the lavender.. ❤ i love the sunrise... ❤ i love my morning greeted with a pool of cheerful sunflowers ❤ i love laying on the beach.. enjoying how the coconut sway wif the winds.. the blue blue sky and. of course.. the blue blue sea.. ❤ i love the stars in the sky.. it look so small.. millions of them.. u wanna have it.. but u can't catch it.. the beauty of the stars is what i always wish to share wif my love one... is my small wish.. and my small dream.. it will happen one day.. i'm wishing upon a star again... i wanna camp wif my love❤ under the stars =) ❤ and lastly.. I love musical box.. the music that comes out from the musical box.. Fur elise (is my favourite tune so far) ^_^ 11:14 PM TODAY WE MADE PLENTY OF ICE-CREAM!!! not alot alot alot though.. but 3 flavours does it consider alot?? which is around 5kg of ice-cream!!!! I JUST LOVE MY DEAR AHGONG!!! he is a nice old man! really nice even though it is so bored down there but he make me want go there =) WHAT FLAVOURS WE MADE TODAY? make a BIG GUESS!!!! 1. RUM & RAISIN! we used up a bottle of rum flavourings -__- but it taste really good RUM . . + . . . RAISIN!!! 2. BANANA CHOCOLATE!!! it taste abit weird.. i think not enough chocolate? but ahgong say banana taste very nice and strong We used REAL banana for this =) BANANA . . + . . HESHSLEY's CHOC!! 3. LIME!! this is the weirdest.. hahaha very sour.. but strong milk taste-__- i gonna try next time to see whether the milk flavour will go off or not.. LIME ONLY!! freshly bought and squeese by ME!!! i've ordered new flavorings from the flavour house.. hahahha MORE ICE-CREAM COMING UP!!! but i just love durian flavour! i eaten two cups today! opps.. -caramel -gula melaka -rose -rum (we have finished it -_-) - LAVENDER!!! (hope they have! i love lavender ❤ ) saw this pics from a mail send by someone.. I GOTTA BE STRONG like HER.. emotionally and physically.. heart pain.. recover soon ok? dun see any stupid couple and just heart pain ok? there is like how many millions of couples in one small SIngapore.. you will see them anywhere and anytime.. so don't heart pain when u see them ok? u will soon get heart attack.. -_- making myself busy is a way to forget the pain? OR just avoiding the problem? hmmm... 10:12 PM Wednesday, September 17, 2008 WHOOHOO!!! today at KOOLWERKZ we made ... Durian ice-cream!! i bought 3 boxes of REAL durian and we made ice-cream out of it!!! so fun so fun! ice-cream is so easy!! (of cos.. cos all ahgong help us do>_<) i think i'm gaining weight sooner or later. imagine consuming lots of ice-cream down there -honeycomb flavour -durian pLUS! all those take away food wif lots of MSG, fats, sugar,,etc. i'm GETTING FAT SOON! this is the leftover durian-_- yucks the ice-cream machine!! hey! we saw this in school isn't it? it is my first time using it =) THIS IS ALL THE ICE-CREAM WE MADE! P.S. see the CL mark! it's MINE! wif special stuff inside ^_^ -seeing pple packing ice-cream for their bf.. made me so envious..! =( I wanna pack one for my husband too and let him try! I wanna made alot of food for my husband next time =) made him FAT wif My LOVE ^_^ my dear future husband.. please come and fetch me away from my pain ... THIS IS MY FAVOURITE PLACE!!! -20 degree ok ok OK? i love hiding in there =) SHHH.. jo will just kill me when she sees this.. but don't she look so cute? scooping her favourite flavour HONEYCOMB! but sad.. she dun wan continue this drp anymore MAYBE.. =( . . i've been listening to this song along my way home.... it's so nice.. esp.. the lyrics is so meaningful.. 萧敬腾 - 疼爱我沉默不代表我不痛我不痛眼淚就不會流總是安靜承受安靜忍受安靜看你走你說我很適合當朋友你說我總是會聽你說你說別太難過保持聯絡有空的時候把疼愛都給你把疼痛都給我最痛是當時微笑送你走等到你轉身後眼淚也不敢流只怕你偶然還會回過頭把疼愛都給你把疼痛都給我放開手是我最後的溫柔如果你能飛得快樂自由這疼痛並不算什麼想挽留　卻為什麼點頭我不懂　連我都不懂我如果說的太少　愛的太多有誰能夠懂把疼愛都給你把疼痛都給我最痛是當時微笑送你走等到你轉身後眼淚也不敢流只怕你偶然還會回過頭把疼愛都給你把疼痛都給我放開手是我最後的溫柔如果你能飛得快樂自由這疼痛並不算什麼千言萬語擁擠我的宇宙讓我震耳欲聾　喔喔有多少愛　就有多少沈默的疼痛把疼愛都給你把疼痛都給我最痛是當時微笑送你走等到你轉身後眼淚也不敢流只怕你偶然還會回過頭把疼愛都給你把疼痛都給我放開手是我最後的溫柔如果你能飛得快樂自由這疼痛並不算什麼 it hurts.. to see couples hugging in the bus .. having so much itimacy in their own sweet world. it triggers the pain inside the heart, and made my heart pain again .. humph.. perhaps.. the more love u put in.. the more pain u get.. WHAT THE HELL IS LOVE???? hai.. =(.. HAVE YOU EVER WONDER where the word F.U.C.K came from? tml plan: i'm gonna make BANANA FLAVOUR ice-cream.. i have already bought bananas. pui: RUm & RAsin and maybe some ice lollies??? =D 9:50 PM Tuesday, September 16, 2008 WHAT THE and still WHAT THE... i took the stupid test.. and they say i got severe depression and need to see doc immediately? LOL.. do i look as though i have one? my friends all think i have lah.. but.. to me? i do not noe the ans either..-_- jo think i should go see some doc? i have been pondering this ques .. esp after i visited IMH i scare i may end up like them? -_-\\\ i still think i'm sort of normal ok? even though i have almost all the symptoms listed. . . BOYS OVER FLOWERS hahahah. went to watch this movie (i actually think that is BOYS JUMP OVER THE FLOWER SHOW! wahahaha) but is not lah( that's of course) this is absolutebly a MUST watch movie.. all the guys is just so HOT!!! P.S. thx Kenny for selling the ticket to us that day! so lucky to meet YOU for ur free popcorn and $5 worth movie tickets! hahaaha the JAP ver. is 100% nicer than the taiwan ver. =P.. Jean dun angry.. wahahaha The actors.. this two is the main actors!the guy character is just so nice so nice! the girl once ponder whether they should get married or not? and really made their relationship really sour.. the guy nv abandon her lah.. he just say" I wish i will be the one protecting forever!" and u noe wat's his dream? to be wif HER forever! awwww.. so sweet❤ . i just want a guy that can keep me by his side protecting me always never letting go of me perhaps .. that's the reason why i love him last time? alot of pple have been asking me why i tgt wif him that time? i've been thinking all this while too.. why? is like .. he is not so perfect? but i guess.. i just feel he can keep me by his side forever.. that's just the simple reason.. but.. everything has ended.. hai.. i guess.. my eyes of analysing a person is not that accurate after all.. hmm.. and.. i just love HIM!!! ❤ cos he so emo emo de.. always hide in one corner.. hahaha he just look cute ..-_^ FINISH watching 葡萄地里的男孩 this korean drama is so nice! even though the guy abit toot toot de .. dun noe how to show his LOVE out.. but his heart is just so nice.. and ... i just wish i can watch the stars wif someone.. i think this is just so sweet and i love the sunflower inside.. somehow.. i wish i can be the girl inside.. stars.. sunflower.. i just love it ❤ went drp.. arrrgghh.. it's so boring there.. boring until will make me anyhow think.. =( but eating ice-cream inside the COLD ROOM which is -20 degree celsius is just so shiok and ah gong is a nice UNCLE =) taking the bus 854 there to BEDOK interchange. is just so long so long so long.. i almost slept on a man shoulder-_- sorry but luckily nv.. i got good control of my neck..=) taking that bus 854 is like experiencing how is it like when HE taking that bus last time back home.. ya.. must be tough on you.. sorry. giving me up is a right choice.. I sux.. and.. still sux 8:48 PM Sunday, September 14, 2008 I'm finally back..from CAMP i wish to go home everyday when i'm there.. hahaha.. i dunno why.. maybe i shouldn't go there when i'm still feeling sad over the incident.. i thought.. maybe i can make myself happier by going there.. as i would not be thinking so much? and i could feel better soon? but it's not.. i can't even have the mood to play over there.. how to get better? FIRST DAY 10/09/08 had all those ice-breakers games again.. i hate ice-breakers games.. cos my memory super bad.. and i can't rmb their names.. but luckily.. i'm able to rmb their names.. but for the games period only.. later on.. i kept asking what's their names.. hahaha met Jiahui.. they say she was my lookalike sister.. LOL i saw someone that look like HIM lah. -_- luckily not in my grp.. he seriously look like him. his face, his action all that.. really look like him.. and wenhui agreed too.. -_- becos of that person that look so like him.. my camp is seriously ruin.. i came to camp becos i want forget him-_-.. and here comes someone that let me cannot forget him-_- seriously.. i dun really like camp.. i came becos (1)i wan forget my pain from him (2) i want help the needy.. and we make a flag for our grp name.. and our grp name is MONDUE first day of sleep is seriously BAD BAD. chat till 2-3am.. About ghost stories in sch and all that. can't even get to sleep after that cos the floor is cold and HARD i only sleep for 1-2 hr -_- SECOND DAY 11/09/08 We had made games for the visit to IMH the next day.. we made BINGO.. . we had MENTAL HEALTH TALK they talk about DEPRESSION and all that.. i seriously think i had all the symptoms.. maybe i need consider seeing a doctor -_- . We had TALENT TIME.. it's a game where u used recycled material to make something.. This is our grp leader WENDE he look weird don't him? we dressed him up as karung guni man.-_- Next we had ShowDown.. it consist different variety of games.. which we need go station to station but i hate the one that need to shout lah.. it make me really deaf and mute-_- Then Documentary Movie this seriously Sux.. i slept all the way.. sorry Sleeping today was abit better even though i slept at only 2am. thank for ur jokes.. it make us happy. "what is the tallest building in the world?" ans: Library..(becos it had a lot of stories(storey)) -_- THIRD DAY 12/09/09 JB came today.. whoohoo.. so nice of her..=) We had dialect lesson together.=) after that we had our IMH outings met those patient.. i'm quite scared by them... cos they are abit.. ya.. but i met one patient over there.. and i wanted him to join the games over there... but guess wat he said? "all those games are played by children, i don't want to play.." OMG! i seriously cannot believe what i have heard!! he don't wish to talk at first.. but after he started talking.. he sound so normal.. he said all the people is not good and in singapore u need money to survive wat he said all made sense.. just it is a depressing point of view.. i think he suffer from depression.. cos he always look so sad.. i begin to wonder whether i will look like him if i continue to be like this? and JB think i should go and see a doc.. went back to school and had lunch.before having MAGICAL AUTUMN i cried when having my lunch.. hahaha no one knew about it cos i went to the toilet.. shh.. they all thought i went shitting.. hahaha.. i miss him.. if we are to be together. today will be our 1 year aniversary... i've planned so much for this day.. but it all gone to waste. i seriously think that we could celebrate this day today... but hai.. and today we had magical autumn.. which is a time to celebrate mooncake festival with the old folks.. i cried so hard.. i miss the times we had our mooncake festival last time.. remember u promising me to have mooncake festival again this year using the same lantern? really had lots of sweet memory that day. i've kiss someone for the first time. even though. it is just a cheek.. but it made me so shy.. so shy.. sobx.=( and ya.. we had our magical autumn my camera sux and this is the best pics lah.. Jo came to school today too!!! I'm so happy to see her! (SEND ME THE PICS WIF THE OLD LADY OK?) we had played wif an old lady.. bringing her around she is really cute.. made me rmb my grandma.. really sad that JO cannot stayed wif me through the nite.. but really thankx her for coming. i love going crazy wif u. cos it's the only time i can forget my pain.=) this meow meow went to our sleeping place and slept on the sofa!!! i nv slept for the whole night!!! LOL-__- crazy crazy. i have been playing games and talking about ghost stories through the nite.. there is so many ghost in school-_- thanks for keeping me awake my 3 friends. we are the last 4 survivor.. the rest all fell asleep-_- FOURTH DAY 13/09/08 i can finally go back home! yeahx.. i miss home seriously! NO CAMP next time.. camping because u wanted to forget pain is seriously a bad way. cos it will only end up having more pain and u can't even bring urself having fun. why is life like this? can god grant me one wish by making me forget everything and made me happy? i just want the old ME and that's all he don't want to be my friend anymore.. why is life like this? i rather i had the pain wif u being me as a fren. then the pain without u as my fren. cos it's more painful so painful.. that i begin crying again.. why is life like this? 6:18 PM	Loves x[DINGDONG]x x[JANDY]x x[PUIYE]x x[MEIJUN]x x[CAIYU]x x[FENGLING]x Whispers My past December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010