I"M GOING AWAY FROM HERE! tml
hope i will nv come back
byebye=)


everyday u are like happily enjoying your life..
and me?
still thinking about u..
still wiping my tears..
i'm just so stupid..
=_=

MY SPAGETTI!!!
look yummy or not?
that white dumpling is mui mui give me de =D

After munching our food..
we head to the arcade..
hahaha
that pui is seriously CRAZY..
she went to dig the prize out lah..
u noe she use her hand and go into the machine and dig the prize out..
I laugh until i went crazy lah..
she siao de..
and playing that game make me really make me very "kan cheong.".
both pui and me is like screaming like siao..
people must have think we both crazy
hahaa..

this is the prize we won
(she dig it out de -_^)
another cuter stitch is with pui
and this is wif me =)
hahaha..
what a great memorial
thx pui =D

lots of memory down in seoul's garden..
it all started in school..
seeing pple having birthday balloon and the birthday bash let me think of my birthday =)
that was a great one..=)
remember that day i went to the seoul garden ..
hahaha
it was maybe the happiest lunch i had with you..
i dun need expensive food..
i only need something nice and sweet..
ya.
seoul garden lunch was great..
cooking for u to eat was my wish and i finally did it
hahaha..
stuffing u with food
and u nv reject it
hahha
i can't forget the cockles we had ..
it never open remember?
no matter how we boil it, fry it, it still nv open..
we fry it until it went BLACK
and we dip into water and wash remember?
hahaha
that was so funny..
making ice kacang out from ice and pouring the syrup here and there was fun too
making a heart shape out from the ice-cream was so sweet too..
enjoyed it so much..
and it was just an unforgetable experience..

in the arcade..
we fish out lots of "babies" out from the arcade at bishan..
seeing u trying so hard to grab one prize for me..
very poor thing.
but very gan dong too
i dun care whether u did or did not get one prize for me..
it's the thought that counts..
and even it is the smallest one.
i will treasure it..
the new arcade in tamp was a bad experience for me..
i almost cry when we play there..
cos we look so different..
i wan to......
=(

seeing so many couple around TM
holding hand..
hugging..
kissing..
they all look so sweet..
seriously..
i envy them
for having someone loving and treasuring them =)

thanks for giving so much happiness...
i was still wondering..
if we r still together..
will we still be happy like always?
and will my day today end up being wif u instead or them?
or will my holidays be a happier one?
or at least not a lonely one..

I ...

I miss u so much..
but i can only keep it in my heart..
can you ever imagine how painful is it?
the pain in my heart..
i ever try replacing it with external pain..
but perhaps..
internal pain take alot more to heal..
no medicine and all that..
NOTHING..
only yourself to let it heal..

I'm selected to DRP..
YEA MAN!
at least i have something occupy in this wkend..
and maybe able to create some new flavour?
Yum YUm

Just finished my 2 exam!
1 more to go..
and i haven't even start..
i hate that subject!
JIayou jIayou..
dun think so much le
please please..
i'm going crazy ..
with you in my head..
even my dreams you also want conquer my brain..
that's the only time when i can forget my pain..
dun come to my dream..
please..
.
i miss you..=(

我好害怕读书。。
每当我静静的读书。。
记忆会浮现。。
会想起你。。
想起以前的事
我会心痛。。
好痛好痛。。
眼泪会不停的流下来。。
好可怕。。好可怕。。
。
。
真的好痛苦。。
可以让我消失吗？

虽然，每天我都逃避自己。。
让自己快乐一些。。
笑多一点。。
可是，自己却好痛苦。。
一切都是暂时的快乐和解脱。。
好希望，我只是以前无忧无虑的自己。。
真实比现实更可怕。。
。
。
刀子重复的在心里割下。。
好痛。。真的好痛。。
如果，可以真的被刀子割下。。
从这里离开。。
我会快乐一些吗?

会心痛是因为太爱你。。
会哭是因为心痛你放弃，却不知道理由。。
讨厌你没有坚持的勇气。。
羡慕其它男人那么珍惜自己的女友。。
永不放弃的精神。。
也许我不能给你要保护，要守候我的感觉。。
所以你才选择放弃
只要你快乐就好了。。
我不会怪你，不会恨你。。
只会怪自己也许没有好好珍惜。。
没有表达自己对你的感觉。。
谢谢你的关怀，你的体贴。。
你会找到比我更爱你的人。。
你要幸福
你要快乐
祝你一切美好。。
我的朋友。。=)
。
当我需要帮助的时候，
头脑第一个就想到你。。
希望你不会生气。。
不会觉得烦。。
谢谢还是谢谢。。

I FED MEOW MEOW!!!
i saw this stray cat in my school and it kept meow-ing at me..
i bought some milk for her to drink and she seem to like it alot =D
hahaha
now mui , pui and jo are so scare of me..
cos my body all touched by the cat..
they are all allergic to cat
-_-
they kept ignoring me LAH..
kitty is so ke ai =)
i think they think i'm crazy..
cos i'm communicating with the cat....

tml i got FPQA TEST =(
i hate FPQA test..
even though it is open book..
it always make me so panic..
so panic until i dun noe wat to do..
and TML I NEED WAKE UP AT 5am..
becos of MR TAN PUNISHMENT!!!
grrrr..=(

我好想你。。

My brain keep occupying with that stupid man and nothing go in LAH!!
STUPID!!!
Exam coming and my brain still thinking of YOU
what the hell lah.
cant the brain just stop thinking and study....
PLEASE!!!
i'm failing my exam if my stupid brain continue!!!!
ARGGGGHHHHHHH
why u chose to give it up?
ARRRRGGGGHHH
why u chose to give it up?
we nv quarrel lah
ARRRGGGGGHHHH
all u think and chose that solution..
THAt is not a solution lah.
U r avoiding it ..
can't u tell me?
can't u tell me and solve tgt?
WHAT THE!!!!!!!!!
what is the use of loving u so much.
what is the use of concerning u
what is the use of missing u ?
ARRRGGGGGGHHHH
all u noe is give up
I HATE IT
I HATE IT!!!!
I crying and crying cos i hate the solution u gave!!!!!
GIVE UP GIVE UP GIVE UP!!!
WHAT THE!!!!
perhaps u dun love me le..
that is just an excuse perhaps...
i'm heartbroken..
=(..

my brain please..
dun think anymore..
can let me study ?
please..
=(

I've been reading puipui book on
" Why Men can Only Do ONe Thing at a time and Women Never Stop Talking"
i've realise that u r the typical man inside..
and i'm just the typical woman inside too..
U always say we dun understand each other..
but after reading the book.
perhaps all men and women are like this..
Their mindset are different..
that's why they dun understand each other..
it just sad that u end it without understanding anything..
and not telling me anything so that we can solve it tgt..
but..
hai..
perhaps if u and me have read the book earlier..
perhaps u will understand why it is like that..
perhaps..
and perhaps not..
=(

MR TAN KENG BENG!!!!!!
grrrrr...
why are u like this?
We are your care group
U are our care person..
WHy can't u act wif thinking?
(in the book they say "men act impulsively without thinking" and i seriously agree to that.. cos in my world already two men (u and my daddy) are like this..they act without thinking....i told my dad and he agree to what he is doing lah .. WHAT THE!)
Leaving us in school and u go off wif the bus..
U have broken my heart and my trust to u..
everytime no matter how u scold us..
i understand that perhaps this is our fault so i nv blame u for that..
let u nag and i just listen..
but why now u must do things until so bad?
WHy?
i respect u so much..
U just hurt my heart lah..
sobx.
we are having exam stressed..
can't u just punish us after exam?
why can't u understand us?
why can't u just listen to our explanation?
DO u always think u r correct?
As a careperson aren't u suppose to care for us?
WHY??
Sobx =(

no more dreaming of him ok?
STUPID BRAIN..
don't spoilt my sleep by keep dreaming of him-_-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
stay as a xin fu de nu ren forever =)

dunno why..
celebrating her birthday let me think back to my birthday and made me sad...
rmb that time..
i was a xin fu de nu ren too
i cry infront of u..
not becos i'm sad..
i just very happy..
happy until i feel scared that i will lose what i have that time..
as i feel really xin fu and afraid that i will lose it..
but sadly enough..
what u promise me nv come true..
and wat i'm worrying come true..
ya..
i've lost ..
lost the two treasures that i've been treasuring for..
kinda.. sad..
or should i say i feel really really sad..
perhaps..
my life are meant to be like that.
=(

wif mummy and brother
It was nice..
my brother think i'm a pest lah..
cos i kept asking him which actor is acting as which character..
cos i really dun noe China history lah..
It was great..
but i was like WAT the..
when the show dun have any ending lah -_-








心就像被刀子重复的割下..
好痛好痛..
好想好想哭..
但是哭不出来..
好痛苦..
i wish to tell u and explain to u why i'm feeling like that..
cos it is like keeping inside my heart hurting me day by day..
but i can't bring myself to say it out..
i dun noe how to say
I'm sorry..
and i think u are scare of me now..
Don't you?
=(

HAPPY 080808!!!!
it's such a lucky day
hahaha
watching OLYMPIC today..(watch until i fell asleep) -_-

hahaha..
sorry that i nv go shopping wif them..
just dun feel like going to town..
i feel abit sick..
actually plan to do work today..
but i end up slacking the whole day..
just dun feel like doing anything ..
hahaha..

today is a lazy day for CHEWLOO..
-sleep
-eat
-watch tV
0_o..she gonna be fat le..


To mui:
i'm sorry i lie to u

To pui and jo:
the promises will be kept.

To ding:
thanks for always be there..
promise me do not think of him le..

hahahahaha..
i've write a chunk of stuff here.. and elaborate on top
but i deleted it..
i think keeping in my heart is better?
i think wait for pple to dig it out is better
hahahahahaha..

why whenever i'm alone ?
i will anyhow think and i will cry?
WHY WHY WHY?
stupid brain..
can u dun think of anything and move forward..
CAN YOU!!!
THE PERSON IS GOING CRAZY IF U CONTINUE LIKE THIS!

lots of people are telling me to move on..
they always told me it's the way how u think it is...
so if u think u r happy .. u r happy
if u think u r sad... u r sad..
but... even though i want to feel happy..
i reallly wish to..
but tears just roll down..
wat can i do?

YUP~
CHEWLOO is starting to move on..
finding back her smile =)

tell jokes with muimui along the way to school..
laugh wif her =)
when i see my classmates i smile and jumped around like last time
make fun of Mr Tan as he was late..
hahaha
even though by only 1 minutes..
who tell him to kept telling us to be punctual..
hahaha
though it really boring in school today..
NLS..
oh man..
i almost fell asleep again..
YAWNxx.
Zzzzzz
luckily i did passed the test..
even though only by a few marks only..
but still HAPPY=)

OVERALL: Chewloo is normal today..
though she almost cry after listening to the songs in the com lab..
cos too gan dong ^^
BUT SHE HOLD ON HER TEARS =)
GREAT JOB!
NO MORE TEARS..
ONLY SMILE OK?
=D

从前从前，
有一个女生每天都好期待去学校。。
不是因为能读书，
不是因为读书让她很快乐，
只是因为一个很简单的理由，
能够见到他。。

他并不是最帅最完美的男人。。
但是就是给那个女生有一股很强很强的感觉。。
见到他，
能够觉得很快乐
能够把一切一切的烦恼忘了。。

也许他对她的感觉是一样的。。
就这样慢慢的。。
他们相爱了。。

从在第一天他们遇到彼此，
从刚刚认识，跳的那支舞，
从一对不认识的人，
到朋友
直到情侣。。
是一断漫长但幸福的日子。。

他们在一起的那段日子很快乐。。
虽然他们是同班同学
沟通的时间真的好少好少。。
又加上功课真的真的好多好多。。
所以，真的好珍惜跟彼此单独出去的唯一快乐时光

那个女生不介意他不像其它男友会打电话给女生，跟她讲活到半夜三更。。
因为他们的爱情是一个不能说的秘密。。
就因为这样他们会SMS给彼此，
就这样每天他们唯一的沟通方式就只是这样
慢慢的。。
一天一天过去了。。
他们越来越不了解彼此。。
又加上功课越来越多，
很多很多烦恼。。
他们又不告诉彼此心事，
因为太为彼此着想，怕加更多的烦恼给对方。。

那个女生控制不了自己对各种烦恼的情绪，
开始在男生面前哭了。。
那个女生只希望简简单单的关怀
但是男生因为不知如何安慰女生，
觉得很辛苦，
觉得不了解而和那个女生分手了。。
虽然，还是很爱她，但是还是放弃了。。

那个女生，
好难好难过。。
她是那么的爱他。。
他要的东西，她都会给他。。
她用她的一切很珍惜着他。。
只是不会表达出来。。
他为何要在那个女生最难过，
最需要他的时候和她分手呢？

每天每天，
她都因为有点想他而哭。。
她已经用尽了一切的力量。。
让他明白感情是需要煎熬的。。
但是他还是这样。。
也许渐渐的。。
那个女生会慢慢忘了他们之间的感情。。
把爱他的感觉藏在心里的一个角落。。
希望他快乐，
实现他的愿望。。
继续当普通朋友。。

It has been one month..
sobx.
take care
may you find happiness without me.

HERE I BLOG AGAIN!!!
this is the 3rd time today.
i think i'm crazy
i cry infront of my mum today..
oh dear
oh dear..
i miss him abit too much..
hahaha...

WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN LOVER AND FRIENDS?

oh ya..
let's blog some happy stuff..
i think i too emo le..
so not like me..
hahaha
i'm crazy de ok?

i spent the whole day doing this mask..
hahaha
FINALLy finish le..
super happy..
hope it look ok..
hahaha..
left the write-UP.
JIAYOU

hahahaa... but i think it still LOOK NICE!!!
so happy after seeing this =D

mummy say not gd choice to put it in water again..
and i rmb last time i put it in water..
the petals start dropping day by day..
i so sad that i cry when i see my sunflower turn bald..
hahaha
so silly..

wishing u forever happy..=)

ChewLOO ar Chewloo..
why r u faking to be happy when u r not?
why r u faking to be jumping around playing when u r not happy...
why do u keep crying like some emo pple?
why does ur heart hurt so much so much..
why r u so silly?
crying have been a part of my life now..
i only need someone to truely understand me..
even my parents are giving me stress.
Can't u just leave me alone?
i'm already feeling very very sad now..
can't u don't scold me because of small little things..
even if u dun concern me..
i dun mind..
i just dun wish u to add more sadness into my life..
my brain is going to burst any moment..
even though i'm at home i'm feeling so sad so sad..
where can i find my peace and quiet and somewhere happy?

Thanks all my friends for being so concern for me..
i just need time to think it over..
sorry if my tears are making all of u sad..
i just need time to adjust back to normal..
give me time..
i'll be fine..
thanks alot for concerning..=)